Random Talk: Good Bye to a Star

Yesterday has been one of the worst days in my life. Actor Robin Williams had passed away the day before and I am late in writing my tribute to him, because I couldn’t come to terms with this fact. As most of you know, I have been posting obituaries for the death of famous celebrities, since Paul Walker died. I wrote one for him, and I also wrote one for Phillip Seymour Hoffman. Both of them were great actors. In fact I have many favorite actors. But none of them are as special to me as Robin Williams is.

Robin Williams had a gift. The ability to bring joy into people’s life.  And now, sitting at home I have to deal with the fact that he couldn’t find joy in his life. Most people know him as a comedian. And he is recognized as one too, but to me he will always be something more. I have cried after seeing many movies. There are some brilliant filmmakers who can jerk tears over something which happens to a character on the screen.

 But I didn’t cry after seeing Good Will Hunting for that reason. I cried because I could relate to Matt Damon’s character. In the movie his character blames himself for a lot of things which are out of his control. I have the same problem. I feel guilty for things that happen that aren’t in my control at all. I take responsibility for things I didn’t do, because I feel guilty. Maybe that’s why people say that I am a natural leader. But blaming myself so many times had a drastic effect in me. Life always seemed a bit dark. I seemed to be depressed after stressing over a lot of things, and I suffered a lot. In the movie there is this one scene where Robin Williams says to Matt Damon “it is not your fault.” over and over again. That scene changed me. That scene changed my outlook on life. Robin Williams, a comedian, a comedian who made me cry. He changed my life.

His movies have always lit people up. Mrs. Doughtfire, Aladdin, and even some of his more mature movies like Good Morning Vietnam, The Fisher King, has touched lives. It is so depressing that that he had to go the way he did. But, as his family said, it’s not his death that we should think about. It’s his life.

Goodbye Robin Williams. You will be missed, dearly. The world already seems a little less bright….